Dear Digital Diary

Dear Digital Diary,

tomorrow is my birthday.

1. I still have no idea what I’m doing. And I probably won’t next year, either.
2. At 22, some of your friends live with their parents, some are married, some are having kids, and some are working their summer jobs. And all of those are okay. Life isn’t linear.
3. As long as you live and act authentically, you will never feel shame for how you live and act.
4. ALWAYS trust your gut. Trust your dreams. Trust your intuition.
5. A high ego is only stable when the subconscious is acknowledged.
6. It’s impossible to consume media and create authentically at the same time. To create, I need to sit with myself instead of other people’s thoughts.
7. Nostalgia will always find me in quiet moments. It’s a silent killer.
8. I will never regret the love that I give. To be human is to love and be loved.
9. We accept the love we think we deserve.
10. I never worried about people abandoning me. I always fear abandoning others.
11. It is a beautiful thing to have kind friends that support you at your highest, lowest, and everywhere between.
12. Some people can’t meet you where you’re at, but you can’t pull them up there with you if they aren’t willing. Doing so will only pull yourself down.
13. A good therapist who sees through bullshit is life changing.
14. Living with my parents after college is…more difficult than I thought.
15. Going to bed early and waking up early feels better than going to bed late and waking up late.
16. I yearn for a slow, calm, life. 
17. My first dog will be named Snoopy.
18. I’m so glad I never got plastic surgery or fillers. I have completely grown into my face.
19. Brave New World might be my favorite book of all time.
20. Mac Miller’s music has spoken to me in a way other artists have failed. The same goes for Noah Kahan.
21. I believe in God. I just had to redefine what that meant to me.
22. I will always yearn for the sea.